I've got deadlines today at work, and things to look forward to tomorrow. If I don't meet those deadlines I don't get to do the fun things. Still, I wanted to come here to bloggerland and give you all an update.
Thank you for your comments yesterday. It feels good to not be alone.
Last night on our ride home I asked my husband if he was going out (Tuesday night he usually does). He said he didn't think he should given my remarks over the weekend. So we talked. Our daughter in the backseat tuned out to her dvd player and I apologized for my behavior. I let him know I wanted to be a caring and supportive wife and mother, but the lack of sleep gets the best of me sometimes. He commented that I have always been a light sleeper and suggested I visit my doctor about the matter. I'm not interested in pills or therapy to help me sleep. No thanks. I countered with trying to transition our 4-year old into her own room. Admittedly I'll still be checking on her a million times a night, but maybe I'll get better about that too.
At home, he made dinner and I read stories to our daughter. We ate, and he left. My daughter mentioned she missed him on these nights when he goes out. I miss him too I told her, but he is losing weight and is happier, so we have to support it. We read some more stories and took our time getting ready for bed. By 9:30pm she was finally asleep. Around 10pm or so, my husband came home. I was still awake, but I went to sleep shortly after he did. Somehow, someway, we all actually slept pretty well. A little too well maybe. My husband overslept 20 minutes, and we were all running a little late this morning. I felt good though, rested. It was a good feeling. The coffeemaker went unused, which I regretted when I got to work, but still a nice night of sleep.
I tried to make my amends, and I will do my part to get our daughter into her room. I will do my part to try to get more sleep. Hopefully in doing these things I will be a better me. I want to be a better me.
Wow. That sounds fantastic. I love a good amends story. And a good sleep story, too.
ReplyDeleteI need to get more sleep as well. I tend to stay up too late. And then the next day I feel so tired. I think that I need to do better with self care.
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